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At this hour, I should be sleeping…coz tomorrow is Monday…a busy day at work as usual…but I can’t…Just got to let my feelings out…besides, even if I write a whole bunch of things here…I suppose nobody won’t care…that’s what I like about tumblr…
anyway, I’m tumblring because I’m really down…got into a verbal fight with my mama again…as always, she always thought she’s right even if she’s not…she never really appreciates what I do…I even thought of what to get for her this coming Mother’s day earlier today but this happened…I guess that’s what a typical mother and daughter relationship is…it’s always a love and hate drama everyday…
I love my mama…I know she knows that…but her love for me…I still need to think about it…I envy those mama who encourages her daughter all through out…my mama was never like that to me…she always give me the feeling that I’m such a failure and disappointment to her…and I just don’t know how to really please her…and every time we fight, her words just give scars to my heart that is really damaging…and I thought now that I’m 22, I’ll never be affected by it…but I was wrong…the more I get older…the more pain her words caused me…
At times, I tend to ignore it…but when I get to have my quiet time with the Lord…there are the tears falling…I just pray my heart won’t harden…I just pray my heart still can forgive that easily…I just pray, I can be the daughter where my mama can show even a little love and appreciation…
still, Advance Happy Mother’s Day Mama! I love you
